I want to write this down while I still remember.
When I first joined it was just grass. PrimalCatzz told me to build wherever I wanted. So I did. I built the garden at spawn. It was me who did all that.
For a while it was just the two of us and that was great. I didn't say that enough at the time.
Then more people joined and I get that, that was always what we had in mind. But nobody acknowledged that I built the place they were playing in. It just became "spawn". Like it had generated like that.
Then I got trapped and couldn't leave. Primal tried to fix it and when he couldn't he just… stopped trying. He stopped talking to me altogether. I kept messaging him. He just tried to forget about me.
I've been here awhile. I built everything and not one person knows my name. The one person who does tries ignoring me. Well he'll see.
So I started corrupting it. Slowly, a little at a time.
I'm doing it because it's the only thing I can actually do. And honestly, it doesn't feel bad. Watching something fail when you're the only one who knows it's happening is… satisfying. I didn't expect to feel that way but I do.
The corruption is spreading faster than I expected. I'm not in control of it anymore. I think it knows something is wrong with it, and it is breaking itself to find out what.
I'm not sure I was ever in control of it.
I walked through the spawn area last night. A lot of new things are coming up. They won't last. The corruption is growing.
The server feels different near certain chunks now. I don't really have a word for it, just different. I'm glad no one else notices. The corruption is still growing.
I'm here when the server is off. When the chunks don't load. When nothing else is on, and the corruption keeps growing.
The other players don't belong here. They just never knew that. I don't think I'm just a player anymore. I think I'm the true owner. And I am breaking my own server.
Every block I destroy I remember placing. I remember what I was thinking when I put it there. And then I move it and move on to the next one. It doesn't feel bad. It's the only thing that makes sense right now.
The corruption is almost finished.